Thirsting for the waters of the soul...

It's after 9pm on a rainy and somewhat cold Sunday in April 2012. I sit here picturing the dry, dusty soil ecstatically accepting the nourishment the rain provides; it's energy spreading like wildfire. "April showers, bring May flowers", as the saying goes. May is my birth month, and always reminds me that after the rain, all is made beautiful again.

In 1969 at age 17, with my mother recently passed, I was left to wander. To seek for myself the very reason for moving forward with a life I no longer had a direction for. I was just like the thirsty soil. I needed spiritual nourishment in order for my root systems to awaken to the energy of a new life. My soul searched through many Religious and spiritual paths, looking for it's resting place. There was none that rang the bell in my unawakened heart until 1985 when I met the living Master that I had prayed for nightly since 1971.

For one week I went with a friend to the Manhattan Center on 34th St in NYC for the "One Look, One Touch" nightly programs. Listening with my dry, parched soul to these nightly talks, I began to dread the ending of the visit. More and more time and energy was spent thinking about the last event and saying goodbye. What a predicament!

One day, the program was opened up for questions and answers. What luck! I would ask my question and have a real plan as to how to change my woes. It went something like this...

Question: I'm already dreading when the programs will be over. I'm going to miss coming here every night and how much I am going to miss you! What should I do, can you help me?

Response -paraphrased: (Looking out to the entire audience, as if looking for one person, but eyeing many) "Why do you brood? (long pause) Picture that you are at a large feast. The table is filled with delicious food. Many, beautiful delicacies are being offered. Are you going to stand there whining and crying out, "Oh, I'm so sad, there
is all this food and soon it will all be gone!!!! What should I do? Boo hoo...
(pauses)....No, you are going to look at the table and the delicious food, and you will pick out what you want to eat,, and when you are finished, you will walk away, satisfied and full."

Yes, her response brought my thirsty, wandering soul to a halt, and there it rests today. I now know how and when to provide nourishment when I'm feeling "dry", and I tend to my garden daily in one form or another. Of course, there have been many, many trying times during these years, but I can always tell when my soul thirsts for the water of life. I eat and drink from the feast table until I am full and beautiful once again, just like the grounds of my house will be in the morning after tonight's rain. I AM BLESSED!

"What do you do to tend to your soul's garden in times of drought?"

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